A Die-Hard Swiftie Who Got Struck By Reality Hard

I was in fifth grade when I first heard a Taylor Swift song. I remembered being so unused to hearing a song with such pure unfiltered lyrics. It was as if it was just someone like me, a little girl, singing the song. Not with adulty lyrics about longing for someone’s touch or something. 

It was also unusual because I rarely heard Country music being played on the radio. I remembered seeing a picture of her on a lyric website thinking oh she’s sweet and pretty for a singer. (Because the first singer I ever idolized was Avril Lavigne, and she wasn’t exactly what you’d consider sweet). 

I knew she was special. And a few years later, everybody started to think so, too. I heard her again, this time, with a feel-god, positive love song Love Story and unlike the heartbreaky Teardrops on my Guitar that I first heard. I became obssessed with her. She was one-of-a-kind. As far as I knew, no singer has ever connected with me the way she had. Music video after music video came out and I was hooked. Fearless will always be one of my most treasured albums OF ALL TIME. 

Speak Now was magical. All songs purely written by her. Then she came to tour and I just had to be there. That concert was one of the most fun moments of my life. I felt devoted to her after having seen and heard her perform. She was amazing. 

Red was not different. I loved her music all the same despite people saying it’s pop. Who cares if it’s pop, it’s still Taylor Swift. It’s still her lyrics, her life, her music. I loved seeing her change. I was already in college when she released it. I felt like we were both changing at the same time. 

1989 was something else. It made me admire her so much more. How could someone create something so unbelievably and unexpectedly breathtaking? (And I’m not overexaggerating. That’s how I would put it in to words the first time I heard it)

After three albums, I thought 1989 wouldn’t be as good. I thought it wouldn’t be like her. Especially because Shake It Off was the first single. But I was proven wrong. I didn’t care if it could’ve been named The Harry Styles album, for godssakes. Her music sounded like how you would feel it. I didn’t know she did that but she did. And I didn’t care who the songs were about. If a song was crap, I wouldn’t care for who it’s written for. 

I downloaded a hefty 9 GB worth of video, The 1989 World Tour, that is, from Apple Music, sometime in Christmas. I was still as in awe as I was the first time I saw her perform. I could name my child after her, I could swear it. I knew I’d always be a Swiftie because after all those years, I still admired her. 

When she dated Calvin Harris, I thought she could finally settle down and probably see her with an album about a wedding or something. Maybe it could be the end of the Taylor Swift drama buzz as I’ve also got tired of the media sensationalizing her as a celebrity more than an artist. But no. They broke up. Fine with me. As I said, as long as she wrote good music, I wouldn’t care less about her love life. But then, she dated Tom Hiddleston. WTF?! Where the fuck did Loki come from? hebddnebwiwiedjanw? Was that supposed to be a joke?

Her 2016 album would probably still amaze the fuck out of me. Or maybe not. But I felt like I’d been hitting my head on a concrete wall for more than a decade and I just felt the concussion ten years later. I have no idea what kind of PR stunt she is pulling off. But what the hell? 

She actually has some real talent and I just don’t get why she has to release all this bullshit publicity. Oh, I know: sales.  The Squad is also becoming so old. Makes me think about fake and fleeting friendships in high school.

So I thought about it and realized I’ve always been right. Taylor and I have been growing together, changing together. Indeed! I already finished college. She’s doing her own thing. She’s doing what a 26 year-old millionnaire can do! Dating hot men and earning millions both at the same time. I’m writing about her now because she’s successful as fuck!

I started out as a girl who looked up so much to her, thinking she’s the girl I want to be like: sweet, musically genius and smart. Damn right, she is all of those things. Now, I am one of those people who cringes whenever I see her in that short stick-straight platinum blond hair. At least now I know I’m growing up. I could never be a sweet girl anyway. 



1989DISCLAIMER: This opinion comes from someone who has been listening to Taylor Swift from the beginning. I know my TayTay stuff. With that being said, comparisons to previous albums cannot be avoided.

I was ten years old when I first heard a girl on the radio sing about love and heartbreak and make it seem like telling a story. It was Taylor Swift’s Teardrops on my Guitar. Before Taylor Swift, I didn’t think that songs could actually play a movie in your head. I absolutely think that she writes songs as if she were writing stories. Which is a very good thing.

It’s been eight years since the first time I fell in love with a Taylor Swift song. A few weeks ago, she released her fifth album, 1989 and as I expected, I am completely in love with it. Many Swiftes are not very happy about her shift from country to pop but I really don’t mind as long as the lyrics are well-written. It’s not like we never saw it coming. Her previous album Red was actually a little bit pop although still has a country sound to it. Her genre might have changed but if you know Taylor Swift’s music, you will still recognize that it is STILL her writing these songs.

Taylor said that when she wrote this album, she wanted the songs to sound exactly like how she felt the emotions and I think she did a good job doing that.

RATING: (1 = A Perfectly Good Heart ; 10 = All Too Well)

1. Welcome To New York

Welcome To New York is one of her promotional singles. When I heard it the first time, I was like meh. It came out after Out of the Woods which I really liked so when I heard this, I was a bit upset. After hearing it several more times, I realized it’s actually a nice track. The song makes me feel like I am in New York, in some way. I don’t know how or why but it does. I feel like I am taking a walk down the streets of New York.

Favorite Line: Everybody here wanted something more, searching for a sound we hadn’t heard before

Rating: 7/10

2. Blank Space

I find this song hilarious. It’s full of sarcasm (my kind of humor) and I think it’s funny that she made a song (and money) out of the bad stuff people say about her. On top of that, the music video is also perfect.

Favorite Line: WHOLE CHORUS

Rating: 7/10

3. Style

I think this is the song I am (and probably all the other Swifties are) most excited about. It is obviously, without a doubt, about her ex, Harry Styles. Her reference to them as a couple that never goes out of style is just brilliant. I’ve always thought that they were such a power couple when they dated. Taylor is like the queen of mainstream music (at least for me) and Harry is the king since he’s a member of the most famous band today.

This song is just so catchy and not like a Nicki Minaj song kind of way. It’s definitely pop but it’s different (different good).

Favorite Line: You’ve got that James Dean daydream look in your eye (Not just that, everything about Harry Style is James Dean-ish)

Rating: 9/10

4. Out of the Woods

Again, speculated as another Harry Styles song. Probably. But regardless, I still think it is a really good song. For some weird reason, I feel like I am in the woods when I hear this song.

Favorite Line: The rest of the world is black and white and we were in screaming color

Rating: 8/10

5. All You Had To Do Was Stay

This song reminds me of something that I can’t just put my finger on. Probably old music. It definitely has a catchy chorus although lyric-wise, I wouldn’t consider her best. I think it’s a little bit cheesy. (REALLY CHEESY)

Rating: 4/10

6. Shake It Off

This is probably the song that I least like in this album. Yes, it’s catchy and makes you want to dance but I’ve never really expected Taylor to produce a cheap pop song that everybody likes. It’s not horrible as other songs right now but I just don’t like it. I certainly not a fan of the bridge that sounds like Avril Lavigne’s Girlfriend. Plus, her high-pitched lines are making me cringe.

Rating: 2/10

7. I Wish You Would

This is one of my favorites in the album. The lyrics are sad and regretful but the music is weirdly, happy and upbeat, which is nice.

Favorite Line: You’re thinking that I hate you now ’cause you still don’t know what I never said

Rating: 9/10

8. Bad Blood

I am not a huge fan of this one because it mainly is composed of weird loud beats (I don’t even know what they are). I guess this is what Taylor wanted because the song is not really happy. It’s full of rage and angst. I don’t like the lyrics either. I know it’s supposedly a hate song (Katy Perry?) but I’m not a fan. It’s definitely the Better Than Revenge of this album.

Favorite Line: NONE

Rating: 2/10

9. Wildest Dreams

The only thing that I can say is that it sounds like a Lana Del Rey song. I am not saying she is a copycat. I’m just saying that when I first heard this song, I automatically thought that it was something Lana would sing. If you know her, you’ll know what I mean. It definitely has that daydreamy tune to it which is good. I like LDR but I don’t think it suits Tay’s voice.

Favorite Line: He’s so tall and handsome as well, he’s so bad but he does it so well (Obv, Harry Styles)

Rating: 5/10

10. How You Get The Girl

This could definitely pass up as a Barbie song. It seems to me that she is talking to a guy, teaching him how to get the girl.

Favorite Line: The whole first verse

Rating: 6/10

11. This Love

This song just makes you want to fall in love. It’s hopeful, happy and enthusiastic.

Favorite Line: When you’re young you just run and come back to what you need

Rating: 7/10

12. I Know Places

This song is like about a couple trying to run away from something as if they are “haunted”. It’s a song that could actually be a song in The Hunger Games. It’s a really different song but really good at the same time.

Favorite Line: They are the hunters, we are the foxes, and we run

Rating: 6/10

13. Clean

This song is a good example of making the song sound like what it really means. The song sounds clean. I know that is weird but the instrumentals definitely remind you of water or something that’s clean. It’s actually weirdly calming. She worked with Imogen Heap on this one and I can understand why it’s so good.

Lyric-wise, I think it’s a really good song too. I think it is one of her most heartfelt songs to date even though it is not necessarily about a particular relationship. One of my faves.

Favorite Line: When I was drowning that’s when I could finally breathe

Rating: 10/10

14. Wonderland

Again, another song that sounds exactly what the lyrics say. I can definitely imagine being in Wonderland when I hear this song. It is definitely one of my favorites. I don’t think it’s cheesy at all.

Favorite Line: Didn’t they tell us don’t rush into things, didn’t you flash your green eyes at me? (It’s obviously Harry Styles)

Rating: 9/10

15. You Are In Love

I imagine this song as Taylor Swift telling a girl how it is to be in love. It’s as if she is a love expert who educates young people about how being in love feels like.

Favorite Line: Chorus

Rating: 7/10

16. New Romantics

This song reminds me of Lorde. I guess Lorde sort of influenced Taylor a bit since they are really good friends. I think this is such a feel-good song – something that you and your friends can dance around to.

Favorite Line: Heartbreak is the national anthem (LOL it’s hilarious)

Rating: 6/10

This album is without a doubt about just one guy – Harry Edward Styles. I don’t really mind her writing about her love life. What else can you write about but your life? Harry actually said it’s fine for her to write about him because she’s actually good. And I agree.

I think this is a really kickass album but I personally don’t think it’s her best album yet unlike what most people would say. I still think Red is her best album but that’s probably because it has All Too Well (a.k.a. my most favorite Tay song). Lyric-wise, I don’t think it’s the best. But given that it is her shift to Pop, I would definitely say that she did an excellent job.

1989 Songs (in order of my favorites)

1. Style

2. I Wish You Would

3. Wonderland

4. Blank Space

5. Welcome To New York

6. Out Of The Woods

7. Clean

8. This Love

9. New Romantics

10. How You Get The Girl

11. You Are In Love

12. I Know Places

13. All You Had To Do Was Stay

14. Wildest Dreams

15. Shake It Off

16. Bad Blood